as if the work could be finished

notes toward a twelfth labor

He arrives where the land has already been opened. He finds its emptiness arranged as a promise.

With the trees set back, the ground marked in faint lines where something will be placed, he stands there a moment longer than necessary, as if waiting to be recognized.

There is always a first task, though no one agrees what it is. In some tellings, it begins with a body—muscle against fur, breath against breath. In this one, it begins with a diagram. A way through.

He studies the problem until it yields its names. The lion appears as resistance. The hydra as recurrence. The hind moves just beyond permission, luminous and uncatchable, and so he follows. This is not about taking, he insists. He means to learn the pattern of this place. He keeps a careful distance. The distance defines this story.

There are places he is told not to enter, and yet. What kind of a hero would he be if he listened? He rebrands his defiance as a mark of nobility, enters gently.

The birds lift at his approach—metal, this time—circling back with images of what cannot be held at ground level. He watches himself from above, a figure moving through a field of tasks. It steadies him, this second vantage. It confirms the shape of his intention.

From here, the river is no body, but a solution. When it turns, when it carries what was meant to be cleared, he marks the success and looks away from where it goes.

There is a belt he must take without breaking what it binds. There are mares whose mouths open at the edge of hunger. There is a dog at a threshold that does not understand passage, only guarding. He speaks to it as if it might recognize him.

No, he is not cruel. This is what complicates things. He believes in the work, in the ordered sequence of steps and in the way each task, once named, can be approached and completed. He believes there is a version of himself at the end of it who will stand in a different light, having moved something essential.

Sometimes he imagines that figure: arms open, at a height just sufficient to prove ascent.

He does not imagine the fall, except briefly, as a flicker at the edge of his vision. By way of correction, he reviews the plan, turns to other images. These are readily available.  

Here is one now. A man in a doorway upends a table. Dust rises behind a horse. A voice intones surrender, means dominion. He carries these as permissions. He arranges them carefully, so they do not contradict. 

At night, the tasks loosen and the numbering slips. He finds himself back at the beginning, unclear how he returned. The land is less arranged now, and its studied lines have blurred. Something moves at the edge of sight, as if something had been here all along, waiting. Not a beast, exactly, but its presence implies some refusal of the entire project. 

He stands without instruction and for a moment nothing is named and he does not reach for a tool.

Then the light shifts, and he begins again.

where we stood, watching

on those who mistook their heights for flight

Consider this, we tried—but held still when they raged. We were about to say babies, offer skillets, call on memory. We learned to hold our words, to stand instead, ever ready with arms at our sides, palms open. We held them through their nightmares and when they raged that we knew nothing of their wars.

They did not come toward us. Their bodies knew a direction, some center pointing, but they had trained themselves away from it.

We waited for a decision that did not arrive. No more war at the threshold, or bringing it home, or calling its conquest flight. We held our tongues, tasting blood and what. We could not say. Stay, we pressed, a whisper. It was not a command, but a reminder of contact with the living. Here, we said, and offered skin. A reminder of how tender the flesh that holds us here, how barely.

Their systems grew intricate. Machineries of belief meant to lift them, and we grew tired of these heights, sensing the fall pre-written.

Milk leaked. Children cried to them—look, see me—but the angle was wrong. Too low. Sometimes they would lift a child as if testing the weight. We held our breath.

Our bodies became passage—grease for the next idea, pillows where their heads had been. We learned to move on. 

The next thing was the children. They wanted to fly, too, but we did not throw them. Not with one on each hip, a basket of laundry, onions cut open on the board.

Here is where they stepped in, who were here so briefly. To do the throwing. Up! They lifted. Up, up! they shouted. 

The children screamed. Again!

without conditions for return

after the Kauaʻi ʻōʻō

the last of a family
you lived on honey,
music, snails

crushed underfoot where
the livable world
was a corridor tightening

options closing
without announcement;
an old story of land
redrawn for what could be taken

in the name of progress—
clearings; in the wake
of a promised future,
bodies left behind

survivors, too,
until gone

forest birds arrive as call
before sight, whole
genealogies; ancestors
moving in the breath of leaves

some blows banish not only
the home, but all conditions
for return

now a recording,
still calling

tend

Time in Space

We need to talk
about time
& to talk with Time
eventually
instead of scheming
how to use it
to make the most
to have a good one
to have the best
to name its price
as with any commodity
any resource
as opposed to Source

to spend instead
recklessly &
listening for language
& other creatures
is to be folded inside
embraced by layered
fabrics of Time & their
attendant creatures
in
immersive intimacies
of waters, skies
where each breath
comes to carry the
next, yet uncaught.

touring the empire

at midnight

There were forests and wildlands at the outskirts of the empire––still, can you imagine?! All quaking earth and quail whistle, where roaring waters sounded ceaselessly. We were paid to visit them, as translators––not very much, as everyone believed that none of the forms of this land had anything informative to offer. What they had to say was so much more than the intelligence the emperors were after but there wasn’t a word for what it was, so we returned without much to say, accepting pennies for our silence. We said nothing, too, of the stifling emptiness they built of gilded halls of recycled data sets, sharpened to cut the earnest pilgrim at every edge. The naked emperors bled, too, but no one spoke of this––neither the blood nor their nakedness. The dogs followed at a distance, to lick it up. There was no room in the shelters in the shadows of the golden halls, so we took our numbers and got in line with the others while the shining halls stood empty, dripping blood with the wind and the dogs howling through them.

A Turning Point

Toward another now

At a critical time, the high priests of progress were called in to advise, and it was expected that their minds would point ever forward, that new horizons would be proclaimed sacred and new wine drunk before its time while the sacrifice was made offstage. They did and it was. Aftermaths appeared much later on the new horizon, and eventually the aftermath was now.

Into March

Against the cessation of stops.

To see the shining belly of a gaze, hungry,
we warm to it because it looks like relief
from another madness, a way to peel
the clocks to feel the membrane of each
hour’s sections cool against tongues,
nectaring the Eden we missed, minutes
running off our chins from the body
of Time, our subsistence rations
after nothing of that space or any place
could reach us singing any––more,
though she tried, calling with an offer.

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