How are you?
Oh, you know.
Yeah.
You know. To be real, today I am a little bit tired.
I know it.
Truth be told, today I noticed that I am almost always extremely tired. Like, more than I have ever been, is that possible? Don’t answer, of course it isn’t. I mean, you remember what it was like, way back. When–– I know I was more tired then, I must have been. And yet. I can’t help it, I just —
Endorphins, maybe?
What?
They say that it’s something about the endorphins that make new mothers forget the pain.
Of childbirth, you mean? But I’m not talking about––
No. I mean, sure, that was the reference when I read it who knows how long ago but think about it. You could apply this to other things.
Don’t tell me a puppy because I don’t even want to––
No, but being a teen, maybe. I mean really, it was awful but that’s not the first thing you think.
True.
And some of those all-nighters when we were nineteen, twenty? Some because we had to but then we would go do another one just because, when the whole world was constantly falling apart, not to mention all the bombs, remember? They were like every other day in the news then, it was just what we lived with. But looking back, what do you remember?
I remember dancing and singing the lyrics at the top of my voice, even when I didn’t know them.
That’s it!
Especially when I didn’t know them.
Exactly!
Haven’t done that in a while.
Well, there you go, then.
Maybe that’s why––
You’re so tired?
No, I know why I’m so tired. I could give you a list, but you’ve got your own. But I mean––
Why it feels like this?
Yes, like more than ever before.
Because ––?
Because I don’t have the scream-dancing at the same time. I’m just––
Trying to survive?
Yes, like this. Coffee, I feel like I live for this––I know it’s more than these sips, obviously, but when I can’t remember what that is exactly––not by name, anyway, that’s when I really don’t want to talk and I definitely don’t want to have to put down the cup. I just want to be in this space where I’m still at the edge of a dream, and no one is poking at it, letting the air out.
How’s that working out?
Well. There are many rough edges.
How many?
Too many to count right now. I’ve still got half a cup. Can you just––.
Would you like one of these?
What is this?
A bunny. I found them at–––
No, see, that’s what I mean. Why are people collecting these bunnies and handing them out?
They are soft.
I don’t even––
Feel!
