Dear algorithm, what I am looking for is not, unlike some requests, a complete unknown. I saw it once before it was gone. Now I am running–– numbers and lines across time. What time? The hour of this page is long.
I know what I asked, but perhaps I was mistaken. I wanted to see inside the tether of your spine and follow it through the central nervous system of the moment, out to the dendrite tips of the long buried and unborn, and back again.
Give me back the dark, when the unseen bled rivers of color where we scratched the invisible surfaces, and it was ours too, the corrugated acres, permutations of possibility between the last light and the next sighting and I floated a wandering frame, slow as any becoming.
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This morning, some curiosity about fractals led me to the work of Mehrdad Garousi, who creates fractal art using mixed medium of mathematics and technology. After reading about his process in “The Postmodern Beauty of Fractals” I found his video Let Me Go, which I discovered I could not view head-on without dizziness. I had to watch through my peripheral vision.
Do you have trouble looking through a kaleidoscope? That is what the dizzying part of that video reminded me of. Fractals are an interesting thing to wake up curious about.
I remember enjoying kaleidoscopes when I was a kid, but I seem to be getting more sensitive to sensory overload as time goes on. Laughing at myself because while I’m quite in love with the idea of there being fractal formations everywhere, but it turns out I wasn’t ready to see so many of them at once. : )