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Tickets, Please

The cost of admission.

You asked about colleges attended, your hulking mass above us, blocking the light. We knew the move for what it was, a banal violence. Hello, wolf, we thought, noting the borrowed sheepskins. How many others had used it to move us from the pits where we waited for the musicians, our kin, to begin? Tickets please. Tickets. The announcement punctuated by the swing of some blunt instrument pulled from a holster at the hip. And on the train where we rode to visit our mother who was dying for lack of credentials to prove she was worthy of the care needed to live. Tickets, please.

When you asked me about colleges attended, I was seated among others on the ground. We were sharing blankets. Many of us were children, some old enough to have acne; others to have the scars of acne and miscellaneous burns; still others had creaking bones and the tired eyes of the old. When you came to ask me for university credentials––tickets, please––you did not notice. How we had removed our shoes, each of us, recognizing holy ground. This was our school where we sat in the dirt on shared blankets at the feet of dead poets.

It is impossible to argue the exile from certain states of being, but we knew to listen for the music of a torquing tongue arched at just the right angle to halt the bone-crunching gears. It was only a moment, but it was long enough to notice the sound for what it was when it resumed. Your question, too. And we laughed with the ghosts when you left us, and went back to school, and you continued to mutter under your breath about the ignorance of some people, and we waved.

Flesh Chorus

From past, until––

Sing in us a song to unwrite what has been overwrought onto the bodies of earthly creatures, their backs and faces, beds and nests, limbs and soils, eyes and the marrow of mountains, each vessel to overflow with what floods between seen and unseen, light to lift the lies from torn pages of official record. Resound.

Evening Talk

Off the record.

Generosities of language emerge as dusk settles, erupting in dialects more prone to dismissing the manners of a given day. The shock of voices startled into screams, and the lingering pause that attends each, an unofficial record of anguish––which is, in its raw form, consistently resistant to official record.

Corpus

And collective.

The words were what was happening to us, lapping and lolling their tides. The shock of being enmeshed in a work of art. If someone had asked what my life was then, one answer would be: anywhere but this body. Another: any felt where beyond its limits––both of which, I see now, would have betrayed certain narrow assumptions about the limits of a given form.