Always wants. An attempt to loosen the fibers that seemed to contain the riddle of becoming. From that bonebound island I thought I knew what I was and knowing only wants, dreamed that if I were only more, I might hold those skies, that ocean, and swell to blooming so I could let it all go into the living. I used to imagine you a landscape I might photograph in pieces to print on transparencies, hold the light of you up to your light to translate for you this wonder at your nearness. I remember where we stood above the sea holding hands up into sunset as if to catch whatever heavens might finally rain.
But what do you want, always?
What does Always want?
I am impatient to know.
Please speak slowly.
I lack fluency and miss the nuance of your most important phrases.
The phrase “bonebound island” comes from The Notebooks of Dylan Thomas.
